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The morning after my original diagnosis, I awoke early and sat down at my computer. This is what I wrote.
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evils converge
for some reason I had in the back
of my mind
a thought.
the thought whispered that the first fight,
the first hurdle,
the first dragon,
the first evil.
the first time I got cancer – would suffice.
the beauty and balance that attracted me to math,
turned my ear towards jazz,
delighted me with love,
caused me to see the beauty of the Creator,
somehow also led me to believe that
the first evil would suffice.
I nurtured that thought, feeding it well.
while all the while knowing that it had
nothing from the beautiful Creator on which to hang.
the plan I assumed was written on my heart
the perfect number sequence optimized.
then I came to find out it did not suffice.
a second evil.
showing its face unashamedly.
24-bit color on a digital colon camera.
unrelated.
no correlation.
unfortunate coincidence.
without bias on my body of 35 years.
Dr. Wilkofsky shakes his head.
two evils converging upon my soul.
beauty will not allow them to prevail.
it cannot.
He must not.
May 30, early morning, day after diagnosis
Posted by Greg at June 05, 2003 10:29 AM | Comments (4)