Three months are complete. The time has come for me to be scanned by those skilled at looking for and finding trouble. Early tomorrow morning I will have my first remission testing. Then Monday I meet with Dr. Hoff to find out the results. It is his last day of seeing patients before he moves back to Brazil. I am very disappointed that I will lose my doctor, who has been most excellent as the director of my treatment. But my hope is that his leaving will not matter to me because I will have no need for him.

When I approach an event that has undetermined outcome, I will typically prepare myself for what I will do in response to various outcomes of the event. My heart will not allow my mind to do this tonight.

Instead I pray. Lord, have mercy on me and keep my body clear of this disease.